My poll "As a Christian who have you told at your Church that you are a nudist/naturist?", received some very valued comments. One of the comments asked what does it matter what religion you belong to, as to why you would be willing to remove your clothing. A reply was offered "I get the sense this poll is more about grappling with a personal dilemma. . ." That is correct, I am grappling with the issue of nudity and social nudity.
This struggle is based on two aspects, my past experience and what I was taught. And then I guess it also has to with trying to understand myself, reasons why I enjoy being nude and what the Word of the Lord has to say on this matter. If you look at those two sentences there is a broad topic that can be covered. In this blog I will attempt to share everything, so that you can understand what my issues better.
But before I continue, I just want to make it clear, I'm not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me. I have worked through these issues, I am at peace about them and what happened, happened.
Let me start with my upbringing first. I grew up in a Christian home and nudity was never accepted, even between my brother and I. In fact even the topic of puberty was never discussed with me when I hit my teen years. I don't think that would have helped though, as by my teen years I already knew quite a bit, even if I did not understand.
You see when I was about eight a four year sexual "relation" was started with me. I use the word relation because for the better part of my life I never considered it as abuse. When this ended I turned to pornography and masturbation, even thought at one stage that I was homosexual. I also enjoyed being nude, due to this nudity I was asked to leave scouting as I encourage youngsters to be nude with me.
Anyway I sought counselling, committed my life to the Lord, forgave my abuser to the point that I played a role in them turning to the Lord themselves. Pornography and masturbation still played a roll in my life even after I married and had 2 kids. Before the kids arrived though I would often be in the nude, after they arrived I was persuaded to only be nude in bedroom. About 5 years ago my wife found the porn stash on my pc and was furious but at the same time committed to our marriage. We received counselling and been working hard on understanding each others needs. I can say I've been free from pornography and masturbation since then. But inside I still long to be clothing free at home.
So last year we discussed this concept and agreed that I could be nude whenever I wanted throughout the house, unless the kids have a problem with it. It was during this time that I started searching the scriptures to try and find a biblical principle on nudity, as we know that there is nowhere written: "Thou may not be nude" or anything similar. This search also led me to a greater understanding of naturist and social nudity. I would love to try social nudity, but due to various factors my wife is not interested and I don't want to attend any social gathering without her.
And thus to be nude or not to be nudist more of understanding myself and thus I'm continually processing my thoughts and understanding. The number one reason is that I do not want anything I do to be contrary to the Word of the Lord.
I've shared a fair amount of information in this blog and I want to thank those who have commented on my previous blogs and polls. I will continue to grapple with various issues but my hope is that I will better understand myself, my motives and principles to be nude and together with my wife, one day, enjoy social nudity as well.